Yoga and Chocolate.


Sounds an awesome idea doesn’t it? A little while ago now, I went on a Yoga workshop run by Susananda Yoga. It’s the second workshop that I’ve been on and I was really looking forward to 3 hours of yoga on a Saturday morning. Bliss… Greeted with a cheery “Good Morning” from Sue, and a “Take a chocolate please! But don’t eat it yet!” I found an unusual unwillingness to actually take a chocolate. Maybe because this is yoga, and such bliss should not be tainted with such lowly (!) things as chocolate. (Or more a case of “Don’t cross Continue Reading →

Only a story.

A few nights ago (29th) you turned up in a dream I had. You came up behind me and stood close. I felt your energy. I started to startle as I realised who it was, partly in recognition. Partly in fear. But then I realised I had no need to fear any longer. So I stopped the startle. I felt as though you spoke. “Don’t go. Be?” An ask. So I stood in answer.  In recognition of what used to be there.  Of what things could have been like – had we been different people, that never were. Remembering the Continue Reading →

For you, my friend.

You’ve a bit of a mountain ahead of you. I don’t know what you’re feeling – I can’t even guess.  I only know what I’m feeling for you going through it. Tonight I wanted to phone, but we don’t normally phone.  All is either in text, messenger or in person.  So I texted. This I promise you.  I will be there, always.  So will you.  And there we will be.

The Day that Sound broke.


It’s been a trying few weeks.  My own energy levels seems to have dropped through the floor, whilst the energy levels of the children have increased exponentially.  I’ve been feeling more and more overwhelmed, found it difficult to concentrate, plan, think… even write.  Words feel stuck and as if I’m having word blindness.  So I’ll do my best to let them flow. I’ve put it down to a few things.  Overdoing it and not resting up enough.  Feeling pulled in many different directions.  Family and close friends going through trials and tribulations of fairly serious natures.  It’s only been a Continue Reading →

108 Update


Well, the first two days went well.  I was up about an hour before sunrise and off out to the garden I trundled.  Feeling slightly self conscious but hey ho – going to do it anyway. Until Yesterday. I was up when my alarm went off at 3:30am.  So was my littlest little one – who was finding it difficult to settle and wanted feeding.  So I stayed and fed him.  Feeling guilty because I wasn’t able to do what I’d set my intent to do. But there wasn’t much I could do about that.  A quote from Buddha says:- Continue Reading →



I’ve recently become aware of this thing called Yoga.  It’ll never catch on, but I like it so I’m willing to give it a good go. Of course I’m just joking you (to quote my eldest little one).  But I have only recently found it for myself.  It’s amazing.  It’s everything I hoped it would be and I’m so glad that the Universe and the Divine pointed me in the right direction precisely at the time it did. To say I’m hooked would be an understatement.  However, as committed as I have been to getting to yoga classes, or 1:1 Continue Reading →

Magic Making Memories


As days go, today is just another day. But it’s an important day to remember someone who left us – in body anyway.  20 years ago to the day. Our dear Sister, who was all about friendship and having fun.  Love and laughter. Completely arranged accidentally, the smalls had a play date with some friends.  We ended up at a local nature reserve, pond dipping, and then a lovely long walk up a lovely big hill for a picnic right at the top among the cowslips and small blue butterflies.  The Momma’s chatted and child-wrangled, whilst giving the extra smalls Continue Reading →

Happy Birthday Littlest Little One!

A year ago just now, my waters went.  (Just after 1 am, 31st March 2016). 30 minutes of indecision… and then the contractions started.  This time around though they felt like I’d been told contractions should have felt.  And pressure on my lower back this time felt amazing. Yet again though, there was no gentle induction into the birthing process.  No 30 minute gaps between contractions to get used to the idea.  No, this was hard, and fast. Every 2-3 minutes right from the get-go.  “I’m calling the midwives, this kids’ coming faster than a freight train”, were the words Continue Reading →

Over-Readiness and Forgotten Roots


In music teaching there’s a usually unknown phenomenon of “being over-ready” for exams.  It’s only usually known about for music performances or, for sports persons training for an event or competition. Basically it means you are past the optimum performance point for your training.  I feel that this has happened for me and the tidying-up process. In the months leading up to Christmas I couldn’t wait to get started.  I eagerly browsed Facebook groups relating to the process feeling all inspired and motivated seeing the before and after pictures. And then Christmas happened.  I waited (for once) to receive the book as Continue Reading →

End of year Review


My word that sounds so grown up.   But I want to take a moment to just honour the past year. It has for many people been really quite horrible. We too have had our share, but as I said to my OH earlier it could have been a lot worse.  It could have been better, but also much, much worse! Our youngest and in all probability last child arrived this year, and he has brought me so much joy and happiness my heart bursts. He is quick to giggle, and that giggle lifts me.  He has his Dad’s smile, Continue Reading →